welcome to my brain. proceed with caution.

here is a space I want to start sharing my thoughts with y’all. you’re welcome. my plan is for it to be one part journal entries, one part sketch book, one part knowledge sharing…in other words, it’s going to be many parts. some days it will be articulated well and others it will be rambles written at 430am. there is a 100% chance there will be errors, because ESL and the obvious fact that my thoughts and my typing move at different speeds.

today’s thought was inspired by a Tik Tok I saw…it asked if “you are playing to win or playing not to lose?” and god did I feel that to the core. I was literally talking about with with Lisa last night. the survival mode i’ve been in for the past year and how I hope I can get out of it because lord knows what mode is below numbness survival. I finally feel confident in my abilities and my soul. I finally have some energy. I finally want to get out of bed and move. I finally feel medically stable. but for the love of god, if I get another bomb dropped on me i’m not sure where it goes from here. I something in my life to stabilize because bitch, I got things to do.